Sensual pleasure passes and vanishes, but the friendship between us, the mutual confidence, the delight of the heart, the enchantment of the soul, these things do not perish and can never be destroyed.
Upon reflection, I decided I had three main weaknesses: I was confused evidenced by a lack of facts, an inability to coordinate my thoughts, and an inability to verbalize my ideas; I had a lack of confidence, which cause me to back down from forcefully stated positions; and I was overly emotional at the expense of careful, scientific though. I was thirtyseven years old and still discovering who I was.
For you she learned to wear a short black slipand red lipstick,how to order a glass of red wineand finish it. She learned to reach outas if to touch your arm and then nottouch it, changing the subject.Didn't you think, she'd begin, orWerent you sorry.To call your best friendsby their schoolboy namesand give them kisses goodbye,to look away when they sayYour wife So your confidence grows.She doesn't ask what you wantbecause she knows.Isn't that what you think?When actually she was only waitingto be told Take off your dressto be stunned, and then do this,never rehearsed, but perfectly obvious:in one motion up, over, and gone,the X of her arms crossing and uncrossing,her face flashing away from you in the fabricso that you couldn't say if she wasappearing or disappearing.